Outside looking In

Social phobia woes...I'm afraid to meet new people because I am convinced that they would not like me...I am weird, awkward, self conscious and insecure (now I know I have Asperger's)...but my phobia in not irrational completely...growing up my peers bullied and ostracized me...it's funny, even though I've been treated cruelly and am twice shy as a result, I don't feel apathy toward others. Being on the outside looking in, knowing what it's like to be judged, can give one perspective...